2013, it is even hard to type it let alone say it!
This is where people are like, “Where did the time go?”
I know were it went same as last year and the year before! Jan 1 you are fresh-faced and excited thinking that this New Year will be better and bigger than ever!
I am tired of make believe…I am tired of lies, broken promises, the feeling that I have been cheated out of something, thinking that I still have plenty of time only to find myself sitting at the bar doing the NYE Countdown yet again!
This year I want to be clean of the past completely! I want to forgive myself for not living up to my own expectations, for not being the stick figure model that hates food, for forgetting that I have a voice, for reminding myself that I make choices without consequences, to wipe away any regret and disappointment I have towards myself. I want to be that fresh-faced Bambi girl who still believes in love no matter what the cost, the girl who feels beautiful even at her worst, the one that looks put together even when she is falling apart. So here’s how I am going to take this on:
I will look at 2013 with those eyes and I will have new experiences and I will fall in love with myself like it is the very first time!
It all starts with me, I have to go back to the basics of what makes me happy and find the core of the strength I once knew.
Clothing has always played a huge role in my life, from a size 6 to 16 the affair has gone on for years.
It is time to stop hiding behind fashion and embrace it. Get rid of the weak, the trends, the fads, the unflattering, anything that has a memory attached that brings me down. THROW in a pile and donate them!
I will shop in my own closet, build themes and 15 piece wardrobes.
The 15 piece wardrobe should fit in a small travel bag ready to go to Vegas in a flash!
Once I get this done I will work on some of the personal things:
Liking the person in the mirror
being the friend I want to have
Making time for the moments and not letting them just pass by
Saying YES to an Adventure
Risking my heart to find someone who wants to love me back
Finding my style, grace, and confidence.
Are you going to wish me luck or be a Bambi too and join me on this journey! It’s going to be a roller coaster so strap in and smile at the camera!